Saturday, May 25, 2013

How far have I come?



Back in unit 3, I rated myself in three areas, physical, spiritual, and psychological as a 5, 7, and 7 respectively. This course has really helped me to understand myself better, and find balance in my life. I do feel that I have improved my physical health because I have become more motivated thanks to my improved psychological and spiritual health. I feel that I am now more balanced as 7’s across the board. Not to say that I have not improved in my spiritual and psychological health, but I now see how much more potential I have for future improvement. Therefore, I cannot possibly be at a 10 yet, when I know how much more potential I have yet to unlock.

To improve myself in each area I had also set a few goals. For my physical health, I set a goal of eating more fresh foods each day and also bringing Yoga practice back into my daily routine. The daily Yoga practice is also a goal for my spiritual and psychological health. In addition to the daily Yoga, I set a goal of eliminating at least one commitment per week from my calendar. I have made much progress with these goals. My diet has improved, and the Yoga is really helping me remain balanced. My calendar is still pretty busy, but it is better than it was before. It has been a challenge to explain to my children that everyone needs to cut down on activities for a while, but it is making our home more peaceful.

Overall, this course has been an amazing experience for me. I have finally been able to find balance and begin to shape my thoughts to impact my life. I almost can’t believe how I was missing this for all these years. I had all these pieces of wellness, I just needed to put them together with the contemplative practice. I hope that as I grow in knowledge and health, I will be able to help others make this connection.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

My plan



Introduction
Health is often described as the absence of physical disease. However, in actuality it is so much more. We have the ability to attain much greater levels of health in physical, psychological, and spiritual areas than what most people realize. Professionals in the field of health and wellness have an obligation to their clients to demonstrate this ability, not simply teach it. Realistically, it is impossible to teach something without a real understanding of it. In order to truly be able to help others with an integral journey toward health, empathy is required. A practitioner with hands on knowledge of his or her own personal journey is the only one equipped with the required knowledge and capacity for empathy. I am currently on a journey toward integral health and wellness. I realize now that this is an ongoing journey, not a simple road map with an end destination. However, my desire is to be able to share the secrets to this amazing journey with others. Without experiencing it for myself, there would be no way to do this, for I cannot share something I do not possess.
Assessment

Over the past nine weeks, I have spent much time reflecting on my own levels of wellness in the physical, psychological, and spiritual realms. After careful reflection, I have concluded that I have a long way to go to reach my optimal wellness. However, this does not mean that I am unhappy with my current level of wellness; I just realize that it can be so much better than I previously realized. First, I would say that my physical wellness is currently good. I feel that I am functionally fit, and currently at a healthy weight. I rarely fall ill, and I have very few physical ailments. However, I am not as fit as I once was, and I know that I am capable of a much higher level of fitness. I have improved in spiritual health in the past few years and even more so over the past nine weeks. In the spiritual area, I actually feel a little stronger than the physical. I feel much more grounded and secure with my beliefs than in my younger years, and am happy with my spirituality, but I know there is always room for improvement. My psychological wellness has also come a long way in the past few years, and I feel quite strong in this area as well. I feel comfortable being alone with myself, and am able to understand and control my emotions more than when I was young. However, I do know that there is always room for improvement.
Goal development:

To improve myself in each area I have set a few goals. For my physical health, I have set a goal of eating more fresh foods each day. It seems that as I have placed more focus on my psychological and spiritual health, I have let my diet slip a bit. I plan to bring more fresh local foods back into my diet. We used to visit the farmers market every Saturday as a family, and we have recently brought this practice back into our lives. My goal is to visit the farmers market at least once per week. This one practice contributes to my physical health by increasing my intake of fresh local produce. However, it also gets me outside and walking with my family. My interpersonal health also benefits on a family and community level. For my psychological health, I have set a goal of slowing down or de-cluttering my schedule. In order to do this I have started by eliminating at least one commitment per week from my calendar. I feel that my psychological health will improve if I do not feel so pulled in multiple directions. With a large family, it is easy to let our schedule become cluttered. Instead of being a slave to the calendar, my goal is to only allow things on the schedule that are necessary and meaningful. For my spiritual health, I have set a goal of daily meditation. Over the past few weeks I have realized the importance of meditation as a daily practice, rather than just something to be done for relaxation now and then. In order to make this goal a reality, I have to plan for it, and make meditation a priority first thing each morning. By setting the alarm and waking up twenty minutes before everyone else in the house I am able to take 15 to 20 minutes each morning for meditation to benefit my spiritual health. In addition to setting goals, I am implementing some practices into my integral health practice.
Practices for personal health:

For physical health, I am implementing two new practices. The first is something I have decided to call mindful nutrition. Although I consider myself pretty good in the area of diet, I have fallen out of the habit of planning meals and became a bit lazy over the past year. With a lack of planning, I was simply throwing meals together and often lacking in certain areas and overindulging in others. With an increase in intentionality in my meal planning and shopping, I have been able to see huge improvements. I am the only person who shops for food in our house. Therefore, my planning, or lack thereof, affects everyone in the house. Instead of purchasing foods simply because they are convenient or sound good, I have decided to only purchase what is beneficial. In addition to helping my own physical health, I am helping the physical health of my entire family.
My second practice for physical health is yoga. Although I used to be an avid yoga practitioner and even instructor, I was not faithfully practicing daily at the onset of this course. Throughout the past nine weeks, I have picked up my yoga practice once again, and the results have been phenomenal. I feel so much stronger and energized. Yoga is wonderful physical exercise, but it helps my psychological and spiritual fitness as well. Although I have often been told that it is not good to exercise before bed, I actually find that the evenings are my favorite time to practice yoga. I like to devote thirty minutes in the evening after the children are in bed to my yoga practice. Eventually, I would like to make this a daily practice, but for now I usually practice every other day.
For psychological health I am also implementing some new practices. The first is the simple practice of deep breathing. This may sound overly simple, but the impact is great. I have six children, and often feel overwhelmed or frustrated throughout the day when my two year old is frustrated and my infant is fussy at the same time that my six year old needs help with a project or my 12 year old forgot to tell me he signed me up to bring snack to his class and the dog just ran through the house after digging in the mud. When I begin to feel overwhelmed, I immediately stop to take a few deep cleansing breaths. Not only is this helping my psychological health, but also I am modeling healthy behavior for my children. I recently told my two year old he could not have a snack before dinner. Instead of having a fit, he sat on the floor and took a few deep breaths. Someone else may have thought he was pouting or something, but I immediately realized what he was doing. Therefore, by showing him a better way to handle his frustration I am helping my own psychological health even more.  
My second practice for psychological health is journaling. Even if I only take five minutes to write down something wonderful that happened or something that I should have handled differently it is helpful. Not only do the journals give me an outlet for frustrations, and a sounding board for new ideas, but they give me a place to come back to for comfort and realization of personal growth.
Spiritual health is also important. For this aspect of my life I am also implementing some practices. Meditation is the first practice for spiritual health. I have been practicing meditation each morning before I begin my day. This practice helps me with my spiritual well being by keeping me grounded and ever mindful. On days when I miss my meditation session, I notice that I feel less at peace.
For me, spiritual health is closely tied to my interpersonal health. I feel more healthy spiritually when I remember that everyone and everything in this world is interconnected. Therefore, I need to remind myself of my interconnectedness with both other people and with nature itself. When I spend time in nature I feel refreshed spiritually. Similarly, when I perform acts of kindness or service for others I also feel refreshed spiritually. For my second spiritual practice, I have begun doing at least one thing each day to either help a fellow human or appreciate the world I live in. Some of these things may be things I do already, I have just become more mindful of them. For instance, we visit a neighbor who provides us with fresh goats milk. Instead of paying for the milk and being on my way, I now take the time to walk with my children through the field to pet the goats. This simple act makes me feel gratitude to the goats and the family who cares for them leaving me spiritually refreshed at the interconnectedness of us all. Similarly, taking the time to volunteer at the food pantry reminds me that others don’t have the security that I have, and how fragile our lives are.
Commitment
When it comes to setting goals, commitment is important. For my own health and wellness I must be committed to my goals. However, this does not mean that I should be inflexible. Luckily, within my goals I have some built in ways of checking up on myself. For my psychological health, I have begun journaling. These journals offer me a built in way of tracking my progress in every other area of integral health. I am able to see my own progress or lack of progress and make changes to my integral health plan. I realize that what works for me now may not always work for me. As with a physical exercise regimen, changes must occur to continue making positive gains. I plan to regularly check up on my progress by checking my journal notes at the end of each season. I like the idea of a seasonal checkup because I always feel ready for change with the change in season from spring to summer or summer to fall etc.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

My Favorites



Over the past several weeks I have come a long way in my meditative practice. When this course first began, I was excited to learn new ways to find health. However, I soon realized that this course was not about learning something new to add to the long list of things that one must do to be healthy. I realized that it was more about finding something within myself. I am amazed at how much progress I have been able to make by setting aside only about twenty minutes per day. Actually, this is less than recommended, but really all I have been able to handle. I have missed a few days, and on some days I have allowed myself more than twenty minutes. I do have six children, so it is not always easy to find a quiet spot, but I have found that early mornings are the best time for me. 

Of all the practices we have learned, the Subtle Mind exercise is my favorite. I still have a hard time witnessing my thoughts instead of grasping at them on many days. However, it has become much easier. As with many things in life, the more I practice, the more proficient I become. I also really enjoyed this weeks visualization exercise. It was not so much the exercise itself, but the realization afterwards that surprised me. As the day progressed, and my feelings of wholeness faded, I realized that it was once again my busy and hectic lifestyle causing me to lose sight of health, happiness, and wholeness. 

If you are hesitant to really jump in to this whole meditation thing, I urge you to just give it a try. Try for a week, and you will be amazed at how much more whole you can become in even such a short time.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Meeting Aesclepius



This week, I tried the Meeting Aesclepius meditation. I found it to be soothing and enjoyable. I was able to feel a strong connection to the healer within myself, and the power that abides there. I feel that this is an important meditation, especially when facing a specific challenge to wellness. 

While I enjoyed this meditation, my favorite is still the Subtle Mind Exercise. I have continued to practice this exercise daily, and feel much more comfortable within my mind than when I began. I feel my concentration and attention throughout the day has actually improved as well. Some days, when I have skipped my meditation in the morning, I feel out of sorts by the afternoon and realize that I need to refocus. 

The saying “one cannot lead another where one has not gone himself” implies that a teacher should not attempt to teach something that he or she has not done. I feel strongly about this, and try to practice what I preach so to speak. However, I also realize that just because something works for me or does not work for me does not mean that others will have the same results. Therefore, I should still be open to ideas I have not personally tried. I can offer these ideas to others, but maybe send them to a teacher other than myself.

Saturday, April 27, 2013

The world I live in



This week, I have been practicing the universal Loving Kindness meditation exercise. Each day, I have settled into meditation at least a few times, focusing on these four phrases of universal Loving Kindness. I was amazed at the impact this has had on me. First of all, it has helped me remain calm when frustrated. Beyond that, it has helped me to realize that I do in fact have the ability to make the world a better place. Oftentimes, I feel as though each of us gets so wrapped up in ourselves that we forget what an impact we can have on each other. This Loving Kindness exercise has reminded me of my own power to impact the world.
When completing the integral assessment, I realized that I should focus more on worldly flourishing. When I was in the Army, I was focused more on this quadrant. However, after leaving the Army, and becoming a stay at home mom, I seem to have forgotten about this quadrant. I focus most of my efforts on my own biological and psycho spiritual development. Even my focus on the interpersonal is mostly focused on my own family. I realize now that I should branch out a bit in my development to the worldly. The universal loving kindness exercise has helped me to realize this. I need to find ways to become more involved in my community to impact the world around me.